《由頑石變磐石》Day 04

漫不經心的跟隨

32 他們來到一個地方,名叫客西馬尼。耶穌對門徒說:「你們坐在這裏,我去禱告。」33 於是祂帶著彼得、雅各和約翰同去。祂驚恐起來,極其難過,34 對他們說:「我心裏非常憂傷,幾乎要死;你們留在這裏,要警醒。」35 祂就稍往前走,俯伏在地,禱告說,如果可能,就叫那時候離開祂。36祂說:「阿爸,父啊!在祢凡事都能;求祢將這杯撤去。然而,不是照我所願的,而是照祢所願的。」37 耶穌回來,見他們睡著了,就對彼得說:「西門,你睡著了嗎?不能警醒一小時嗎?38 總要警醒禱告,免得陷入試探。你們心靈固然願意,肉體卻軟弱了。」39 耶穌又去禱告,說的話跟先前一樣。40 祂又來,見他們睡著了,因為他們的眼睛很困倦;他們也不知道怎麼回答祂。41 祂第三次來對他們說:「現在你們仍在睡覺安歇嗎?夠了,時候到了。看哪,人子被出賣在罪人手裏了。42 起來,我們走吧!看哪,那出賣我的人快來了。」(馬可福音十四32-42.和修) 

32 They went to a place called Gethsemane, and Jesus said to His disciples, “Sit here while I pray.” 33 He took Peter, James and John along with Him, and He began to be deeply distressed and troubled. 34 “My soul is overwhelmed with sorrow to the point of death,” He said to them. “Stay here and keep watch.” 35 Going a little farther, he fell to the ground and prayed that if possible the hour might pass from Him. 36 “Abba,  Father,” He said, “everything is possible for You. Take this cup from me. Yet not what I will, but what You will.” 37 Then He returned to His disciples and found them sleeping. “Simon,” He said to Peter, “are you asleep? Couldn’t you keep watch for one hour? 38 Watch and pray so that you will not fall into temptation. The spirit is willing, but the flesh is weak.” 39 Once more he went away and prayed the same thing. 40 When He came back, He again found them sleeping, because their eyes were heavy. They did not know what to say to Him. 41 Returning the third time, He said to them, “Are you still sleeping and resting? Enough! The hour has come. Look, the Son of Man is delivered into the hands of sinners. 42 Rise! Let us go! Here comes my betrayer!” (Mark 14:32-42)

分享:當耶穌準備踏上十架之路,祂決定在臨行前禱告,並帶同幾個心愛的門徒一同前往,藉此鼓勵他們一同為此事同心合意地祈禱天父。然而,經文卻告知,門徒們因太疲倦而睡著了三次。

當要面對苦難和死亡的恐怖和痛苦時,有著人子身份的耶穌也會憂愁難過。經文形容祂:「心裏非常憂傷,幾乎要死」,所以,祂特意也邀請門徒一同禱告守望。只是,他們卻漫不經心地看待耶穌的邀請,並在耶穌禱告的同時,昏昏沉沉地睡著了。他們完全忘記耶穌之前所說的受苦受難,也意識不到耶穌此刻的感受。事實證明,門徒一直都未能與耶穌同步。作為祂的愛徒,卻完全不了解老師的掙扎,又不能與耶穌一同警醒禱告。還記得彼得曾經揚言自己不會離棄主耶穌,但這次彼得的表現卻令主非常失望。或許,門徒在深夜被叫出來,會
感到無奈和疲累,耶穌是明白人性的軟弱的,但這卻不能成為失敗的藉口。耶穌特意再對彼得說:「西門,你睡著了嗎?不能警醒一小時嗎?總要警醒禱告,免得陷入試探。你們心靈固然願意,肉體卻軟弱了。」

今天,我們也會像彼得一樣,充滿人性的軟弱和限制;而當面對這些掙扎,耶穌的勸勉就是「警醒禱告,免得陷入試探。」當信徒越感到軟弱無力,就更要信靠神,並謹慎自守。事實上,這是一件非自然的事,甚至是與人性相違背。不過,耶穌就是要教導我們,在患難和遇到試探時,我們要作出抵抗,並堅持不妥協,這才是耶穌的心意。

有一牧者曾說:「禱告與沉睡有一點相似,就是當事人同樣都要閉上眼睛。門徒曾作自信十足的承諾,然而在客西馬尼園卻睏倦沉睡。這就是『心靈固然願意,肉體卻是軟弱』的最深刻寫照。」

要記得,容許自己軟弱,即使只是片刻,就是縱容軟弱強大,也會與主遠離。今天,我們總要捉緊耶穌的心意,並為祂的事工熱切禱告守望。如果,我們連這些也不能作,那麼我們究竟可以為主作什麼呢?

反思:你是否一個經常昏睡的人?是否總是不能與耶穌同步呢?

禱告:親愛的主耶穌,求祢原諒我們的軟弱和無心,總是將祢的事拋諸腦後,以漫不經心的狀態來敷衍了事。今天祢的話語再次提醒我,不能再向軟弱低頭。求主賜下聖靈,讓我時刻緊貼祢的心意而行,與祢同步。奉主名求,阿們。